away, away, away

Today was a much better day.
I wrote a song, which helped my mood. I will record it probably tomorrow morning, if I can finish it in time before my mom comes home and we have to go to the market.

A line:

"I try to blow my troubles away, away, away
as my good friend said
But my troubles are in my head
And I am just left with shortness of breath"

My grandfather once asked me, "Do you ever write songs about rainbows and butterflies, you know, happy shit like that?"

the bags under your eyes- they don't lie.

I hate depression.
I don't know too many people who enjoy it, so at least I'm not alone in this.
But depression is horrible, Especially when you can't control what thoughts pop into your head.
And the distorted thinking doesn't help.

The brain I'm trying to use to cope with all of this is the very brain that's causing so much trouble.

Here are some more shots from the Cowan Heights funtime with Maile.



















© Copyright 2009 Katherine Gehl Donovan Photography

I love the cigar shop. Jeremy was blowing nice big donuts and Luke beat Amar in 5/6 chess games, and the sixth was a stalemate.
























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such great cowan heights

Today was great. Maile and I went to the cowan heights area and hoofed it up the path right past skyline. We both had our cameras and got some good shots of each other. Maile is a lovely model and I like that we are both ready and willing to get our hands dirty. She has the Canon Rebel XT and I have the XTi, so we're both pretty familiar with each other's cameras.

Maile is a true friend. I am so thankful that she is in my life and I would feed her pumpkin custard and list all of the things that I love about her any day.


Model: Maile Roseland
© Copyright 2009 Katherine Gehl Donovan Photography

Another Tote.

So once upon a time (last week) I made a tote bag prettier with felt, a hot glue gun, and wooden little pretties. There's a sun, too, in the top right corner, with rays that are hard to see in the picture. I love the blue birds and the heart at the base of the tree trunk.

your love will be safe with me

Inspired by Bon Iver's line in "re: Stacks".

My feelings

I feel really uncomfortable. I feel overwhelmed by projects that are in various stages of incompletion. I feel restless, and antsy, but I feel like I'd fall asleep the minute my head falls onto my pillow.

I feel like I'm not getting anything done, yet I have accomplished a lot today. I feel depressed. My psychiatrist changed my medications, so I'm probably going to feel weird until they get into my system. That's probably the reason for me feeling so down. I hope that tomorrow will be a better day.

I made this for the market today:

Suddenly, Everything Has Changed

KNOW THYSELF.

RING RING!
K: Hello!
L: Hi!
K: Can I call you back in like a minute?
L: Sure! Are you knitting?
K: ........................Yes.

I <3 SHARK WEEK.

I finally finished something I've been trying my best to make for a month! I won't show you the finished product until Lauren gets it, as I don't want to spoil the surprise and I also want pictures of her modeling it. I'll tell you a bit about it, though...

My close friend Lauren LOVES Shark Week on the Discovery Channel. (Her favorite shark is the Megalodon.) She also is a woman with a need for a bag that can house all of her pretty things. Originally, I wanted to make a laptop case, but frustration and lack of patience on my part painfully and slowly killed that dream, so I customized a tote bag instead.

It looks wonderful and I am really excited to show you the finished product, but I don't want her checking my blog and accidentally ruining the magic....

I AM GOING TO STEAL THIS $899 PUPPY IF I AM NOT RESTRAINED.

INRI

I went on a walk with my camera through the grounds of St. Joseph's Hospital. These were my favorite shots from the Spiritual Development Center, where nuns can be spotted if you close your eyes, tap your heels, and wish with all of your might.

by the way...

I am at peace.
I talk to God every day, all of the time.
I do not doubt His unfailing love and grace.
That's all.

Imprint in the Grass

New song! It's called "Imprint in the Grass" and you can download it here.

A sampler:
"Don't leave!" He cries
You cry, "Don't leave me!"
He cries, He cries.

My impression in the soil
is all that is left of me, until I return

The longer I wait, the more weeds accumulate
weeds that you will help me prune

© Copyright 2009 Katherine Gehl Donovan

bird impasse

Model: Dustin Burd
© Copyright 2009 Katherine Gehl Donovan

I love the 50mm lens. It is so wonderful.
We had quite the fun romping around Cowan Heights...I think that Maile and I might go there as soon as more flowers start to bloom! She loves spring and so do I, so there will be plenty of shots between the two of us of flowers, dew, birds, and, of course, ladies in dresses.

More edits to come!!!

my mood:if my mood could be a face

YES!
Today was marvelous, despite the rough 4:00am start. Dustin Burd went with me to Cowan Heights, where we just parked at a nice spot and started taking some neat photos. We then went to Ruby's where I ate a child-sized meal for my child-sized bladder. After that, we went to White Oak Park and I played guitar on a blanket for awhile.

I'm not allowed to drive while on this new medication, so it was a great relief to get out and about, especially since we were doing everything I love to do and often cannot do at home. Dustin is an old friend.

More photos later....I have some maile-inspired flowery dyptichs for you guys.